Musings on Youth and Brashness

This morning, Jimon interviewed another candidate for Clan Nettobuku's warrior corps. When Saimei asked him what he thought of the candidate, Jimon said he was "a brash young fellow... like the rest of us."

I think this is the problem I have with Clan Nettobuku. The others here are, for the most part, young and brash, and I feel that they have not been wounded enough times to appreciate their own fallibility. Only Commander Kobushi and Captain Tomo are older than I, and the others are much younger.

Of course, because I have taken very good care of myself, I look nearly as young as they — and because I came late to the ways of combat, they may actually have more experience than I do. And my worries about being fallible, and easily wounded, may just be my own insecurity and defeatism. In which case, it'd be stupid of me to project that onto the others, and hold back our progress.

But still, I worry.